Kylie Jenner is not as “paralyzed” by haters as she thinks. In the latest episode of Kardashian Season 5, titled “Baby Rocky,” the beauty mogul was brought to tears by the relentless criticism of her appearance.

“It’s like a miracle that I’m still confident and can still look in the mirror and think I’m beautiful,” she told Kendall Jenner with the sincerity of a kind sister.

Although often criticized for wearing too much makeup, Kylie says she was recently attacked online for wearing too little makeup, revealing “lines” on her face that she says she’s had since as a 𝘤𝘩𝘪𝘭𝘥.

“I always hear unpleasant things about myself,” she explains in a confessional. “I don’t think it was this particular headline that made me feel vulnerable or impacted me more strongly. I think it was only after more than 10 years of hearing about it that it all became tiring.”

“Last year I went on a journey to dissolve half of my lip fillers. I hate even having to have this conversation over and over again because it makes me feel like I’m wasting my breath because I think, for me, it will never change. But it’s just…” she said as she started to cry. “Why do people think it’s okay to talk about me?”

Kylie added: “I’ve never cried over this before but I guess it’s going to affect me.”

While the star saw some comments in which people defended her against trolls, she said she was still accused of “[fucking] enhancing her face” with plastic surgery. Kylie previously revealed that she had fillers and breast implants.

“Even though I’ve had a lot of surgery and all this stuff, I still don’t think it’s okay to talk about someone’s appearance,” she told Kendall. “People have been talking about my appearance since I was 12 or 13 years old. Before I got lip fillers, people talked about my appearance. It’s really painful. I look old. I see it under every post.”

Kendall reminded her sister that she had “never looked younger” and “never looked better” before Kylie noted in her confessional that she was “really strong” and “put in place This is for a reason.”

“I really think of myself as a confident person. I’m so grateful, so lucky that I can wake up, look in the mirror and like what I see and think I’m beautiful,” she said. “But I’m also human and there’s only so much one person can endure.”